Rabble On

Progress. Right. I've had it. End of post.

I kid, I kid.

I continue to read and really enjoy the Higginbotham book. I find the insights helpful and relatable. Some of the concepts are familiar to me already whilst the historical look at things is fascinating.

The concepts of science relating to the oneness of everything is particularly intriguing. To look at everyday things and ideas and concepts and see the Divine/spiritual in them is something that I have been striving for.

I have not been doing the "homework" in the book as most of the exercises are to drive home the points made in the chapter and I have been conceptualizing those points fairly easily thus far. If I find myself loosing the thread I may simply reread the chapter or passages.

I have taken part in a couple of guided meditations and plan to do more. They scare me and fascinated me in almost equal parts. Fear is a large part of my life and has been for as long as I can remember. I think that is just part of coming from an abusive background. That being said I am striving to acknowledge that and move with it. Use it. Deal with it.

Huh. That came out of nowhere. Back to the meditations.

They were a new experience for me and really did reveal things about myself that I was not expecting. The sheer amount of new information is daunting. At this stage I feel I have more questions than answers.

And I'm okay with that. As I keep getting told, "It's okay. Calm down. Take your time."

But I want to know. I need to know. I will keep searching and reaching for understanding. There is now more that I must research and contemplate. The further I delve into myself the more focused my search becomes.

And that's the greatest thing about this process. I didn't know where to start so jumped in with both feet. I knew what spoke to me and I have been given....input that those were the right choices. And now I know that I have even further to go. Options have been expanded.

I am freakin' stoked!